Life in the stopped lane..

Pets are amazing in the way they bond with you. They dont care if you are rich or poor, beautiful or ugly, they dont look at your previous experience, and dont judge how you dress. Aside from a few simple things such as food, water and tidy place to do their business, all they will ever ask you for is your heart. When you give them that, they will give you theirs. It is amazing how much they care for you and want to be with you after that, it is like no other human-human relationship. Sure they can be a handful, rambunctious at times, even sinister, but arent we all sometimes. Everyone learns, and they learn in their own way, as do they. My 21 yr old cat went from a crazy huntress to a frightened hate-them-all to a lovable wisened member of the family. She has been with us for so long that she has learned how to speak with us. Her meowing has taken a different form. Instead of just calling out for attention, she now has specific cat-like phrases for certain events. To others she may be annoying, but I can tell what is on her mind by the tone/pitch of her call. It is almost like she is mimicking human sounds.

The more time they spend with you, the more they learn from you. You sometimes see the human mental illnesses appear in pets, which is kinda funny. But the learning is not unidirectional, for we also learn from them. Humans have somehow forgotten to let things go, in their minds, and animals around us remind us of this everyday. They get into a fight, a tense situation, they deal with it, shake off the extra energy, and move on. I guess its all about directing your energy; I havent gotten it all figured out yet. So, youre not nutty for befriending your cat, you are probably better off. One day she will "talk" back and you will swear that he/she understood you.

Be careful with those pills, dont get dependent on them. Doctors dont know it all. I heard this interesting theory once about depression. That we go through it because there may be something in our life that is left unanswered, some question, some problem. We often dont know what that question or problem is and its important enough that we put things on hold to try and figure it out. We direct our energy towards it, or perhaps our body does. I would think people with unsolved issues, after a long time, may get used to it, and believe that this state is all they have, forget what they started with. Anyway, its still a theory, nothing more, but its helped me grasp some things that are happening. I'm not even comparing my life to yours, just sharing as a friend. We cant know depression unless we have happiness in our life to compare it with, to distinguish it from. It is a paradoxical state of being, but I think it has its place.

Keep looking for the job. The job will find you.